Monday, September 10, 2012

Thirsty...


Tick tock tick tock tick tock…

So slow the hours are passing…

And I wait…

I need to quench my thirst…

And I wait…

Tick tock tick tock tick tock…

My cup is full, but it is not satisfying

I long for a different chalice…

A chalice that can satisfy my thirst with one drop…

Alas, many chalices are at hand

But which one to choose? …

Which one to choose?

Tick tock tick tock tick tock…

My hand is eager, my mouth is keen but my heart is uncertain  

My soul is crying, my ego is willing but my conscious is fighting

Tick tock tick tock tick tock…

And I wait…

I’m still waiting…

The maze is deep

The maze is long…and no way to go back…

Tick tock tick tock tick tock…

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Polychcromie

I find it worth to be published....

Chère frère Blanc,
Quand je suis né j'étais Noir,
Quand j'ai grandi j'étais Noir,
Je suis malade, je suis Noir,
Tandisque toi, homme Blanc,
Quand tu es né tu es Rose,
Quand tu as grandi, tu étais Blanc,
Quand tu vas au soleil, tu es Rouge,
Quand tu as froid, tu es Bleu,
Quand tu as peur, tu es Vert,
Quand tu es malade, tu es Jaune.
Et après tout cela....
Tu oses m'appeller....
Homme de Couleur!

Friday, March 10, 2006

A walk in the woods

My mind went blank...
I searched for the answer but all I could find is emptiness.
I was lost...
I opened the door and tried to run away from the "nothing" that was comquering my world...
I kept on walking...
I kept on falling...
I looked up to the sky asking for help.... I looked more.... alas...
I looked around and saw my self surrounded by trees in the middle of the woods.... in the middle of darkness.... a so deep darkness....
I was afraid...
I closed my eyes not knowing what to do while tears were washing my cold cheeks.
And then I felt it...
I looked up high and saw perfect snowflakes falling down....
Snowflakes that were so smooth , so calm, so gentel like a touch of an angel
I looked around again and witnessed a beautiful breathtaking whitness....
A very peaceful whitness showing me even a walk in the woods so beautiful can be...
Then... I realized there is always a way out for me!

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Refuge...

In my despair moments I searched for a refugee to sooth my shredded mind, mood and feelings.

I closed my eyes trying to disconnect to my cluttered entourage hoping to find a peaceful corner where I can seek some self contentment and serenity.

At first there was nothing but darkness. While after I started hearing giggles. I listened carefully and it appeared to be children laughers

A bit later, darkness scattered and voices became clearer…

And there I was, just a little girl playing in the garden.

I was in my village surrounded by my cousins…

We were baking in the old fashioned way and eating proudly what our small hands prepared and gathered from figs and grapes.

The trees were our little houses. That branch was the bedroom and this branch was our sitting room.

The leaves served us as plates to serve on.

And there was the walnut trees which we could never invade as they were tall and so short were our legs. However we tried to take benefit of their fruits by throwing stones on. Poor trees… they must have suffered a lot but revenged well as barely these stones were able to get us what we desired.

Our pets were stone with a whole which we recruited carefully and tied to a rope in order to drag them with us wherever we go. Many times these imaginary pets (mainly sheep) rebelled on us by hurting our ankles and causing them to bleed as we always stripped over them…

The Donkey was always on rotation among us, but my uncle’s donkey was so stubborn and lazy… he barely moves his legs although we used to kick him a lot.

The hens were not also that lucky as they were under a continuous surveillance. As soon as they laid the eggs we stole them and asked my aunt to cook them for us… damn, they were so delicious!

As for the cows, they used to raise their eyes to the sky, asking God’s mercy to spare them our little hands. We used to beg our aunt to let us milk with her the cows, but we squeezed and squeezed and milk never came out. We thought that only my aunt hands had the magic touch.

And the evenings, Wow… they were tremendous.

We used to sleep outside. 9 little floor mattresses all aside screaming for a bed time story. They were creepy but we loved them.

And when our head lay on the pillow, the last thing we used to see is a sky crowded with millions of stars watching us from above. Many times we tried to count them but never came to an end… Truly such skies don’t exist anymore.

Those were lovely days…. The best I knew…

Sunday, January 08, 2006

I thought I was healed, but apparantely not...

I thought I was healed but apparently not…
It’s very frustrating to discover how fragile we are…
We, who consider ourselves enjoying a very strong personality and up to any difficulty…
We, who thought we’re hard and can confront anything…,
But we get devastated when we see that we’re beaten by ourselves…

All what we have build for, turned down into ashes in a blink of an eye…
All what we considered as “given” turned to be hard to catch…

The path we believed to be smooth and easy to take appeared to be full of thorns

How hard it is to wake up someday and find out that we are not who we are or thought to be...

And to discover that this carcass we build around ourselves hide a very frail human being who we chose to forget…


I thought I was healed but apparently not…
We spend our life fighting and fighting back that our mind blurred and demolished all the basic needs our frail human being requires…

Our body fights fiercely to hide and restrain any sign of weakness…

Our eyes would struggle to veil the tears who want to come out…

Our head would resist the heavy and unbearable burden to keep its posture high…

Our throat would choke to death rather to infiltrate a cry of help…


I thought I was healed but apparently not…
How long is the path of self redemption…

How hard is the route of self reconciliation…

How cruel life it is…

Life… a beautiful word but once we turn our back, it shows its hideous face…
A face full of betrayal, treachery and disloyalty…


I thought I was healed but apparently not…
The cure is reachable but destroyable…

All we have to do is to trade our heart by a stone…

Not any stone… but with a dark hard black stone…

With Granite… a very beautiful stone but can resist all human factors…

Granite… a stone that can allow us to survive only up to our standards…


I thought I was healed but apparently not,
As my body rejected this stony heart.

Suffer… Suffer… Suffer… my heart is crying with every beat…

My heart is taking revenge for the dark years I obliged him to live…

And now, I gaze the earth searching for a new stone…

A new stone, hoping that would resist longer than the previous one,

Because…


I thought I was healed by apparently not…

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Et Dieu créa la Femme...

Et la nuit tomba
Enveloppant la terre,
Avec son rideau de mystère.

La lune était pleine,
Les étoiles scintillaient,
Et le vent avec ses grandes poches pleines,
Distribuait tous les délices des odeurs d’orients.

Tout appelait la merveille,
Qui s’éveilla à son tour,
Et créa un monde de miracles,
Un monde des milles merveilles

La music des petits habitants de la nuit
Appelaient à la danse.
Une étoile filante a son tour,
Apparairent, invitant les souhaits….

Tour était beau…
Une ambiance de plaisance gouvernait.
Tout était beau…
Mais l’Homme resta insatisfait.

Il marcha leurrant,
Dans ce petit coin de Paradis…
La tête souciant,
Ne savant qu’est ce qu’il dit…

Et Dieu créa la femme.
L’homme sourit.
Il se sent comblé,
Il est complet…

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

IF...

If Adam & Eve were Chinese we would be still in Heaven because they would ignored the Apple and eaten the Snack...

Memories...

Memories…
who said that memories are the most beautiful thing in the world?

It’s true that happy moments are things we like to keep alive…

We all have or knew happy moments/ memories that we like to go back and take as refugee from time to time in deep sorrows or lonesome time…

Yet unfortunately, memories hurt sometimes, and it’s not necessary the bad or unpleasant ones but also good memories can have bad impact on us too…

Sometimes it’s hard and painful to remember joyful moments especially when knowing that they are lost forever…

Sometimes we wish we never lived such moments… We may believe that we have forgotten them… and we convince ourselves about this that it becomes so true…

You may believe that they are already way behind but they are like Pandora’s Box; once open you can never close it again…unless after some considerable time…

Memories… as much as they are pleasant, as much as they are heartbreaking…